24 5 / 2012
Cycle of Grief
They say that heartbreaks are blessings from God. It’s just His way of letting you realize that He saved you from the wrong one.
It’s true. But moving on is the hardest part. Especially if you’ve come to know the person for so long. From being friends to lovers and back to being strangers.
cycle of grief: been there, done that. but not all.
- DENIAL- after breaking up, I took a lot of time with myself. enjoyed every ounce of being single. not facing the the reality that i still love him. so i thought i’ve moved on. i handled it so right. no communications with him. just me savoring singlehood. no commitments. no do’s and dont’s. i was then a figure of a strong, courageous girl who got through a milestone in an instant.
- ANGER- then came the time he wanted me back. texting. calling. and we meet! i felt hatred. i hate him for ruining a once so happy relationship. for breaking the trust he had established. i hate him for the fact that he didn’t even bother to try to fix what was left broken. no efforts. he just left me hanging. no official goodbyes. and there he is, mingling with lots of people. dating each and every girl in town where he went.
- BARGAINING- i missed him. that’s all i know. i missed the one who used to be the ideal boyfriend (he sure was). and thought of starting all over with him not out of stupidity because of that one mistake but because of the many right things he made me feel.
- DEPRESSION- i felt bad. sad. burden. alone. hurt. foolish. regretful.
- ACCEPTANCE- still not in here i guess. still waiting for it to occur. for me to be happier. leave the past behind. go forth with my journey without looking back and regretting every event that happened between us.
13 5 / 2012
hope i’m done with being so emotional over nonsense stuff!
i wish someone could dedicate this song to me:)
Give Your Heart A Break by Demi Lovato
